You may surely by now wonder if I am normal right?
Yes I am, thanks to them – you see, that is what I survive on above all, those drawings and flowers.
This is a very emotional week for me, probably compared only to the week I left my Kids.
This week is most emotional because in five days, my memoir goes LIVE! Well, the Kindle edition is already out there but the evidence remains in the paper back right?
What load will I be offloading? What weight will I be taking up? What ‘judgments’ will I be subjected to? What support will I be getting? The questions are endless.
One thing I know for sure, is that I will survive as I have so far done.
My kids are I are trying as hard as it is, to cope our own way.
I do the calling when the lines are kind, I see them on skype when either of their ‘other mothers’ is online or takes them to a cyber shop, and I get information on them from their school or teacher.
Yes, I had tried to plan my departure with them and work out a stay in touch plan.
We have always been more of friends and even ‘cheri cocos’ than we have been ‘mother -child’.
That is why, Gaby will say ‘ton cheri coco’, David will sign ton ami, and Alain will sign yours truly.
Together they are my three musketeers and together, we shall overcome just like the musketeers did.
We always remind each other that it is ‘Tous pour Un et Un pour Tous’ (All for One and One for All).
Yes, I Know many cannot understand and the tendency is to condemn that which we can’t!
Yes, I know some will be sorry for it is also in our human nature to be right?
Yes, I know other yet will say well serves you right after all am I not the one who ‘cooked my meals and made my bed’?
Whatever, I am sure of my drawings and flowers just like this one: and on those I survive.
And I know, just as painful as my life had been, just as traumatizing my marriage and divorce had been, just in the same way this one shall come to pass.
I know, those drawings and flowers
will no longer only see me survive, but I will thrive and we all shall be happily together on that boat.
Gentle followers of mine, what says thou?