The woman and mother I am becoming…

Dear world, it’s been a while and I have been from meds cum side effects tuned, to feeling good. I have wanted to write several posts on different subjects, but oh my where is the time!!!

Oh before I proceed, I finally got a new good smart phone so I got my beloved WP and other dear apps back 😍

So this morning while waiting for court to start, I can do a post from my new gadget…

These past few days have got me thinking and doing lots towards becoming a better Me: Me the Woman and Me the Mother…

Souvenirs like these boosts the moods tons

Me the Woman is already on track with the sorting out via my memoirs, the continuation of Me Moments, and more reading and writing. I am also beginning to connect physically with some old and new acquaintances. I had an awesome lunch with my dear Bea at some chic beach restaurant and she even spent the day and night with me yesterday. Indeed, my favourites are very few but that’s perfect for Me…

What’s the Worst Case Scenario…

” In my writings, I have come to transcend boundaries to the me I thought was long ‘dead’. That little troubled but hyper kid nicknamed ayo, that turbulent teenager fondly called by some ‘ayobebe’, ‘radicaux’, ‘zam zam’, that battered, tattered but not shattered woman and wife, that ‘guilt stricken‘ mother, that transformed young, dynamic, disciplined and dedicated lady with a new ‘soif’ for life.” Excerpt from my fourth memoir  – cover above

Me the Mother is still trying. Trying so hard to be there for my boys though homes apart. My first son is in boarding school so I can only visit him once a month – school rules. We write to each other weekly though… I brought him a letter this morning and saw him looking rumpled and pale – he is sick but also very homesick… Will take him out for check up and emotional support…

The other two still live with their Dad because am not ready yet to take them full swing. I have them every other weekend, and visit them at school once a week as much as feasible. This Saturday I decided to go pick them up and spend the afternoon with them. I found them in a very uncomfortable situation. At least their dad finally agreed that I could give the 9 years old a phone. This is a huge milestone we are talking about HERE …  You can imagine how many times we communicated yesterday by sms and calls…

They both asked me to visit them at school today and my initial reply was No. But sure guilt and even logic set in and I called back to say sure see you guys at 3 pm. It’s logical I think that I try to see them much more often than when I couldn’t either because I was in my travels, or I didn’t even know their school nor home location…

I just think it’s going to fall in place slowly but surely. I have to work so hard to become the best Me the Woman so as to be the best Me the Mother. For me that’s proving to be the order of things. I am learning lots of patience, tolerance, boundaries, and alternative ways of saying and doing…

I am grateful for all the opportunities I have had in life, and ever conscious of the need to stay close to my bliss and faith…

Wishing us all a nice week…