Trusting To Tell


Hello World, let’s see how this post unravels. I often always trust myself to tell whatever is in me, but cunningly or curiously I don’t know how to tell it this time around. I am therefore trusting the universe to inspire me to tell it as it types out, and that you my readers trust what you read or make of it.

Gladly for starters, I am in the Atlantic city of Limbe in Cameroon, where even the rain doesn’t steal its magic. I trust those who live or have visited such Atlantic cities feel what I say or mean…

Now, my intention with this post is three fold:

  1. I want to share some how I got to Trust To Tell;
  2. How you can work at Trusting To Tell;
  3. Why you should work at Trusting to Tell.

The above aligned, let me start by recalling that I know deeply about this issue of Trust because I have had to face it, deal with it, been dealt by it and finally made peace with it…kind of being able to define it in each situation, review my expectations, appreciate or let go, and tell only so much or tell/do it all with no self recriminations or regrets…

To get to the above, I had to figure out how to Trust To Tell not only my story so far, but all my issues with Trust in the first place. I had to learn to Trust my own self to tell it to myself and my face without literally pulling my hair or self harming in any way; I also had to figure out how to Trust To Tell others without Fear of their actions or reactions… To keep this part brief, I will summarize that I worked on the different issues with various professionals including a life coach and a psychotherapist and of course with myself and my God…some friends and family contributed directly or indirectly.

My journey I share so as to inspire you to work at Trusting To Tell.  We all have something we want to tell, that is human nature. Yet, if we can’t Trust, then telling is near impossible… We must be willing to be vulnerable over and again, to even anticipate hurt, I know I know this ain’t easy but what is? It is so difficult especially if we tried to trust as children and felt shut up, ignored, abused, ridiculed and etc. Trust has to be accompanied by forgiveness or should I say ushered? You forgive yourself, you forgive those you feel took your trust for granted, and you prepare to forgive those who may do so again… That way you give yourself permission to even consider Trusting all over again…

Thirdly, we all need to Trust To Tell or else we could lose our sanity at some point. Another point I want to make is that who we Trust To Tell may be trusted for one and not for another issue and so on… It ain’t with any given formula. We also have to be prepared to trust the unknown, the un familial, the stranger because we mere mortals can’t tell who is the vessel of our Grace and  redemption.

I trusted to tell it to the world and I trusted myself to tell it as is… I forgave myself for all, forgave any I thought had taken me and my story and life for granted, and I already forgave the world if I was going to be misunderstood, taken for granted once more etc. In the end, my Peace of Mind was my priority in my journey to Trust To Tell. I wish you same.

Shalom – dare to Trust to Tell however you figure it out and no matter how long it takes…

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10 thoughts on “Trusting To Tell”

  1. You continue to inspire me, Lady Marie! Thank you for your steady guidance and honest – I always TRUST you to tell the TRUTH even when it doesn’t go down like honey!

    I know this is a different take on your post’s message, but it’s all good here in Marie Abanga-comment land!

    Your sweetness and love always make the TRUTH you see in life make sense to me, & I can accept what you TELL me, no matter how hard it is to acknowledge in my soul. ❤️❤️❤️

    1. Hi lady, tht there is no one take on this post’s message. We are all including myself to make of it what we may – so yep your comment is right on – and yep all is always good in my space. Acceptance is already a big big equation and the hardness for a soul acknowledgment can be dealt with gradually thereafter. Loads of love and all

    1. Hi Lynda, it’s been such a while. Yes, dare to trust to even tell it to yourself as in aloud or on paper etc without bashing your skull and feeling so awful, remorseful, guilty, victim and etc – and other side of the coin, dare to trust to tell someone else regardless of the ‘outcome’. I know you can trust me on this one when I say I know how hard this is, Shalom

      1. I’m sorry it has been so long. I stopped following blogs for awhile, because I thought that reading and commenting on blogs was keeping me from writing my memoir. But now I realize that was not the problem. I am having neurofeedback treatments for my PTSD, and it is helping me so much.

        I love the picture of you with your handsome sons. It’s great to connect with you again. You are a very special person. ❤

      2. Am so glad the neurofeedback treatments are helping you so much. Sometimes we need to break off to find ourselves. Just yesterday, I read Jacob’s story again in the Bible and saw how his escape/break off etc from their homestead (in your case the blogosphere lol), enabled him ‘mature’ up and finally return a different man. I take those breaks too, even with ‘reality’ if it gets to that. Now you know it wasn’t the blog blurry which affected your memoir writing but probably the memoir writing itself. I sincerely think some memoirs are to be written by ghost writers because narrating to one to write is different from you writing and dealing with all again in your mind

  2. Hi Marie, Thanks for your blog. Regarding trust, listen to the voice of your intuition because in that you can always trust once you learn how to recognise its beautiful voice. Namaste, Steve C

    *We are all equal parts of The Universe – Celebrate!*

    On 16 August 2017 at 16:04, Marie Abanga’s Blog wrote:

    > [image: Boxbe] This message is eligible > for Automatic Cleanup! (comment-reply@wordpress.com) Add cleanup rule > > | More info > > > Marie Abanga posted: “Hello World, let’s see how this post unravels. I > trust myself to tell whatever is in me, but cunningly or curriously I don’t > know how to tell it this time around. I am therefore trusting the universe > to inspire me to tell it as it types out, and that you ” >

    1. Hi Steve, thanks for your comment. I pick out and hold on to this: “the voice of your intuition; once you learn how to recognise its beautiful voice”. Thanks so much, I do follow my intuition a lot

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