Posted in Coaching and Therapy, Marie's Garden, Mental Health Advocacy

On this day when my girl would have turned 10: I am ready for my purification by Faith and not by Fear!!!

My baby girl had this much hair

I feel that inner compass shifting towards which direction I can’t tell yet so clearly. I have had a searching soul for so long, only late year it dawned to me it had become a serene soul. The poems written thereafter will be published eventually and can sure attest to that.

I realize there has been a gradual preparation for a spiritual journey since 2008 when I learnt the toughest lesson I think I’ll ever learn from life. The daughter I had been so badly craving for, was born and buried in less than 24 hours. The pain I felt on that has only been seconded by the pain I felt when my brother Gabriel died.

Ange Claire as I named her, was born on the 27 of February 2008 at noon, and died on the 28th of February 2008 at 3:52 am. That lesson was called DETACHMENT.

Today, I am ready as directly from within, to start with my official purification as from March 1st 2018.

The following are some of the books accompanying me along:

  • Peace Pilgrim;
  • Every Day Meditation with James Allen;
  • Fasting and Eating for Health: A Medical Doctor’s Program For Conquering Disease;

  • A Course In Miracles;
  • Chicken Soup for Your Soul: Counting Your Blessings

Some of my most cherished prayers include:

See us all during each of my breaks, thanks for all the best wishes and prayer thoughts



Marie Angele Abanga (simplified to Marie Abanga) aka MAG likes to describe herself as a “Jacqueline of several trades”. She is an everyday woman and mother with a zigzag profile. Let’s give it a try! She is an Activist, an Author, a Coach, a Consultant, a Feminist, a Lawyer, a Lecturer, a Prince 2 Project Manager, a Psychotherapist, a Philanthropist, a minister of the Word of God and...! She just loves to sum it up by saying she is a person of passions and a tale of talents. Her life’s journey has filled over 6 books already and her three musketeers keep her busy at home. MAG is also the founder and CEO of the association Hope for the Abused and Battered, and the Country Director of the Gabriel Bebonbechem Foundation for Epilepsy & Mental wellbeing. The plethora of life's experiences and shenanigans she has lived through and learned from in near 4 decades of existence, have equipped her with such an arsenal to coach, train and motivate just any and everyone. She is so charismatic, dynamic and full of life, going by her designed mantra of 3Ds: Determination; Discipline and Dedication. These sum her+her quest to be the best version of herself and impact others perfectly. She attributes all her wealth of knowledge to her conscientious attendance of both informal and formal school.

22 thoughts on “On this day when my girl would have turned 10: I am ready for my purification by Faith and not by Fear!!!

  1. Thank you for sharing your heart and by so doing edify your loyal readers on so many life’s lessons.

    There certainly is not enough time for each of us to learn all we need to learn by personal experience only. your sharing therefore adds to our common heritage and wealth of knowledge.

    Wishing you bliss from fulfillment in your path, whatever it turn out to be. Count on my support. Namaste

  2. Oh, dear, precious Marie. I am holding you in my heart.

    My grandson Kyle was born, and died, on February 21, 2006. My son, his father, has been told he cannot have more children due to a physical accident that happened since then. Kyle was his only child.

    The loss of a brand new life, especially when you were eagerly awaiting that baby, is heart wrenching. Yes, we must detach, let go and let God. It is not easy.

    I am sorry I haven’t been on blogs much lately, we are moving to a new house and I am still weak from influenza. I will see a new doctor tomorrow, my old doctor has retired.

    God bless your fast. I am praying for you now.

    1. Thank you so much Linda, sharing is soulfulness and am honoured to do so unreservedly. Good luck with the move, I will be absent too from blogging for quiet a long while so it’s totally understandable.

  3. It just amazes me the quantity of traumas you’ve experienced and SURVIVED . To have learned to incorporate these situations into a life directed toward creating opportunities for others, is simply overwhelming to me. You have learned to harness a strength from adversity that few people would be strong enough to overcome. This gift of yours has not only helped you survive, but also to THRIVE. I am in awe!

    1. Thanks Doc. Really twas but Grace and am Grateful. I wanted out in Feb 2009 but my Lord said nope; ain’t done with you yet girl…more and bigger errands for me to run. Hence I am ready. All the experiences and talents obviously for much bigger picture than I could grasp if shown at once lol

      1. Doc, I just watched the awesome movie by Dr Wayne Dyer and am so glad this is actually what has been going on in my life for the past 3 years. I mean at 39 years, isn’t this Graceful? You are definitely one of the Angels on my path

      2. I am simply a man who cares about people. I hope the lives I touch benefit half as much as I have benefitted from the experiences people have shared with me. There is so much goodness if people are willing to see beyond the distractions they face each day.

  4. Marie, I am so sorry for the loss of your precious daughter. This certainly is an unfathomable lesson to learn, and as a mother myself my heart is with you. You are such a brave and strong woman, thank you for opening your life and heart all allowing us to learn from your experiences. Sending you an abundance of love.

    1. Thank you so much darling. My Angel is there with the Angels guarding and guiding me all the way. My life’s purpose is to inspire and motivate all with my personal experiences.

      1. I appreciate the encouragement, it is soulful. cheers to you too, I guess I better hop over and read some more. Just going through some post fasting adjustment plus my usual hype schedule lol

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in: Logo

You are commenting using your account. Log Out /  Change )

Google photo

You are commenting using your Google account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s