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Trusting To Tell


Hello World, let’s see how this post unravels. I trust myself to tell whatever is in me, but cunningly or curriously I don’t know how to tell it this time around. I am therefore trusting the universe to inspire me to tell it as it types out, and that you my readers trust what you read or make of it.

Gladly for starters, I am in the atlantic city of Limbe where even the rain doesn’t steal its magic. I trust those who live or have visited such cities feel what I say or mean…

Now, my intention with this post is three fold:

  1. I want to share some how I got to Trust To Tell;
  2. How you can work at Trusting To Tell;
  3. Why you should work at Trusting to Tell.

The above aligned, let me start by recalling that I know deeply about this issue of Trust because I have had to face it, deal eith, been dealt by it and finally make peace with it…kindof being able to define it in each situation, review my expectations, appreciate or let go, and tell only so much or tell/do it all with no self recriminations or regrets…

To get to the above, I had to figure out how to Trust To Tell not only my story so far, but all my issue with Trust in the first place. I had to learn to Trust my ownself to tell it to myself and my face without literally pulling my hair or self harming in any way; I also had to figure out how to Trust To Tell others without Fear of their actions or reactions… To keep this part brief, I will summarize that I worked on the different issues with various professionals including a life coach and a psychotherapist and of course with myself and my God…some friends and family contributed directly or indirectly.

My journey I share so as to inspire you to work at Trusting To Tell.  We all have something we want to tell, that is human nature. Yet, if we can’t Trust, then telling is near impossible… We must be willing to be vulnerable over and again, to even anticipate hurt, I know I know this ain’t easy but what is? It is so difficult especially if we tried to trust as children and felt shut up, ignored, abused, ridiculed and etc Trust has to be accompanied by forgiveness or should I say ushered? You forgive yourself, you forgive those youvfeel took your trust for granted, and you prepare to forgive those who may do so again… That way you give yourself permission to even consider Trusting all over again…

Thirdly, we all need to Trust To Tell or else we could lose our sanity at some point. Another point I want to make is that who we Trust To Tell may be trusted for one and not for another issue and so on… It ain’t with any given formula. We also have to be prepared to trust the unknown, the in familial, the stranger because we mere mortals can’t tell who is the vessel of our Grace and  redemption. 

I trusted to tell it to the world and I trusted myself to tell it as is… I forgave myself for all, forgave any I thought had taken me and my story and life for granted, and I already forgave the world if I was going to be misunderstood, taken for granted once more etc. In the end, my Peace of Mind was my priority in my journey to Trust To Tell. I wish you same.

Shalom – dare to Trust to Tell however you figure it out and no matter how long it takes

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When a smile was so hard to come by…


Marie June 1991

I have looked at several of her childhood and teenage photos and not been able to find even half a dozen where she smiles…

Was it some unwritten photography rules of the era or just her life as it was then? Nothing worth smiling into the camera for? …

Ah indeed a picture they say conveys a thousand words… I stumbled on this one today and it dates 8 June 1990… O had just turned 11 years that January… That picture was my school portrait…  It is when I wrote the common entrance examination into secondary school…no comment about what was happening at home back then – inside me …

I marvel at the laxitude with which I smile today. Could smiles really have been so hard to come by then?

To all those therefore not able to smile today, know it will and can come to pass…

I am very grateful I can smile now so much and feel it and love it and love me so…

The above was taken yesterday on my way out to the Startup Grind Douala launch… I had fun, networked and all… Smiling when coming from within is the best thing can happen I hold…

Happy Sunday to all

Sometimes you’ve got to treat yourself to something


It may be ice cream like I had last friday sharing the moment with my son and budy Alain, or it may be something else…

Life is fleeting there is no doubt about that. One moment you are here and the next moment you are nought but memory.  You can’t afford to not enjoy yourself in the meantime. I know some of us are workaholics, and making time for a treat or indulging say in ice cream when ever mindful of our health and weight, may be a tough one to go for…

I am so grateful through my twists and turns I have come to a point of balance. Work and Play (reading and writing, dancing and singing can be play no problem), serious and joker, calorie counter and not so mindful etc…

It is important for our holistic wellbeing that we treat ourselves to something sometimes… Seriously if we don’t, life will still treat us to dust someday…

For the sake of treating myself this something also, I decided since last Tuesday to spend the rest of the week in Buea, working and playing from there ( I have to sadly return to Douala this afternoon, I have missed Ella and my home). I came with Alain and the other two musketeers are on vacation at their Dad’s… 

I attended a networking event sane tuesday evening and expanded my networks, I spent a whole day with my dearest Donna in the seaside resort of Limbe, on Friday,  I also attended two beautiful events yesterday Saturday and even got a beautiful attestation of participation…

Alain on his part accompanied me sometimes, but other times he had his own stuffs to do. He lived with a mentor and I elsewhere. That arrangement was also treating myself to some space away from him and letting him have his own experiences away from me…

It is VIP for our mental health and I am ever grateful for all these opportunities. Talking about being grateful these couple of days, I got that awesome piece of art from Donna I shared yesterday, I got featured among the 11 most sought after young speakers (http://www.celbmdafrica.org/2017/07/23/11-highly-sought-after-young-trainers-speakers-in-cameroon/) and trainers in Cameroon, and  I got the following from Alain –  I know he means that:

I actually loved washing their feet until even last year lol

Happy Sunday therefore to us and remember to sometimes treat yourself to something…

Another of Donna’s wonders

P.S: I developed Stye but the swollen eye ain’t going to spoil my mood no matter the iritarion lol (no picture for now who knows if that’s virtually contagious right?)

See who’s back: What a blogging break…


blogging break you said
That was what I thought I needed

What a blogging break I brokered: Am glad to be back!!!

If I have learnt one thing during this blogging break, it is that I really love blogging and the break was not effective.

Primo, I wrote three updates when I had bragged of a month free of blogging. Ha, who was I deceiving? ME it turns out;

Secondly, I didn’t even open the book I was hoping to finish writing during this break. Ha again, who was I deceiving? ME once more;

Thirdly, did I read as much as planned? I bow my head to look at my feet and whisper loudly NO – blogs I follow and 3 or so books and social media fake news etc don’t fill my reading reservoir sorry Marie try harder;

So dear world, I admit I may have brokered a bad blogging break. Indeed, I had hoped to take away to ‘blogging birb’ of thrice weekly and turn that period to reading and writing ‘beck’. I didn’t get any close to achieving that and I realize that although the break from regular blogging did usher in some small mental release, I didn’t really need it. To be honest, I kept counting the days the ‘officially announced’ blogging break will be over and I kept writing down stuffs I would have been excited to blog about.

My evaluating this blogging break is the same way I have for some years now been able to candidly evaluate myself and stuffs in my life. It is the same way I encourage my clients and those I mentor and coach to evaluate their too.

Not wanting to write a long post today on my ‘official first day of new blogging term’, I will conclude with a few updates:

Event flyer

  1. I did continue building my business (s) and am gradually seeing a big picture. I am taking a diploma on CBT to focus on being a personal and mental wellbeing coach of substance ( hardly any in my whole country);

  2. I am working on officially setting up my law firm; another big leap of faith, sometimes collaboration is not for you;

    Gaby
    recently on vaccation in the village
  3. Today my last son Gaby turns 8 and yes he will forever remind me of miracles. His conception was one and he kicked me from the womb when my desperation was its peak and I was holding a knife to my heart. I can never forget that. Coincidentally, I am coaching today on Developing a positive attitude and I am full of positivity and gratitude for life especially on this day. Eight bonus years of living with so much gratitude and I am authentically ME inside out… To God be the Glory Great Things He has Done…

  4. It was therefore a bitter sweet break overall, and there were some moments of ocean breeze and village life – but also some stress inducing and charged moments… life happens

  5. My one resolution with regards to blogging is that no more pressure on myself to maintain any blogging routine, my mental wellbeing is primordial and this is also living my mental health advocacy

Happy Sunday to us all and thank you my e-family

thank you
am so full of Gratitude

And so was Gaby a few minutes ago