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I am so excited to begin my week with such an exciting project. I mean lol, I don’t need no Visa to go to this one hahaha
Come on all Poetry lovers and wannabees and mellows like myself, let’s give it a go and have some fun. Who knows what incredible network and visibility one can get right?
Am submitting a poem on Wednesday so Help me …
That was a poem I wrote SIWO last Sunday to usher in the month of October. In 5 days we celebrate world mental health day and statistics remain bleak in spite of all the awareness and resources available.
I am most grateful for the listening gift received in full some months ago.
(c) Marie Abanga 2017
p.s: Am not sure if this is a throwback poem because I wrote same last year, but I needed to remind myself of this now more than ever. The above picture taken in 2007 and found in my drawer recently, is clearly at time when I was a big people pleaser to the detriment of my own self. Today, as I learn how to take more and more care of my emotional and mental wellbeing, ‘saying it as it is’ becomes indispensable. Be you inspired and motivated and have a great new month full of self care, and just saying it as it is…
p.s: Wow, and I mean wow…it’s been a long long while I wrote a poem, this should be the first I am writing for publishing in 2018. I mean I have moved from a searching soul to a serene soul and was getting ready to publish my serene soul collection by December, and although this poem is seemingly serene, the circumstances surrounding its composing were a bit disturbing. In a nut shell, x threatened by sms to disown sons because they refused to go with his ‘erratic plans’ this summer. He seems to have stood by his word and followed up saying he ain’t chipping a dime for their back to school. Well, thanks for the pain and inspiration – am not wasting any energy fighting – got my boys already with me and he ain’t God. So, to all in my shoes or anything similar, don’t give in to hate, that’ll eat you up…bring yourself to grieve and then steam it off…don’t give them the luxury of thinking they got you psychologically and emotionally again – Amen
pps: 27/08/18 Update deserved because this is a testimony that love conquers all. The above saga played out in July and it took me 3 weeks to deal and heal and write that poem for closure. I refused to fight back in human ways, my support system was active, and I let it go. And just on this day when this scheduled poem was published, I receive what I cal a “peace truce phone call”. The balance of the kids fees and needs for the year has been paid. I looked up to the Heavens and said a silent prayer of gratitude. Ain’t got no time to hate and bear any grudges indeed. Sometimes the best fighting is done on your knees and with tears…all is well that ends well
I was seriously walking on my path on day 6 of my purification journey, when Aime my love surprised me with the above snaps as she came back from seeing her son off to school. I had been thinking of the words to a poem titled My Path, and so think these fotos make a good match lol
When you say I don’t know me anymore, I will say I can imagine how you feel…
When you say my mind is murky, I will say I can imagine how you feel…
When you say you can’t take it no more, I will say I can imagine how you feel…
When you say you had a miscarriage, I will say I can imagine how you feel…
When you say you just buried a child, I will say I can imagine how you feel…
When you say those kids drive me nuts, I will say I can imagine how you feel…
When you say I am having a divorce, I will say I can imagine how you feel…
When you say I left and lost everything, I will say I can imagine how you feel…
When you say I was abused and raped, I will say I can imagine how you feel…
When you say I want my life back, I will say I can imagine how you feel…
When you say I really need help, I will say I can imagine how you feel…
When you say am making progress, I will say I can imagine how you feel…
When you say thank you we did it, I will say thank you too we really did…
P.s: Excitedly looking forward to starting a new chapter of my life as a professional life coach and CBT therapist. One of my life coaches told me I had an impressive toolbox of personal experiences. I sure do and am grateful for those… I say the serenity prayer now more than ever…I see where all this is heading to…My long term goal with all this is to open ‘Marie’s Healing Home for inner peace’
p.s: Concluding one of my most meh cum yum yum weeks so far lol. I have yawned this week more than in the last months of 2017 I must confess. Currently yawning even
Have an awesome weekend everyone, looking forward to spending saturday with my first grandson (can you believe that)
and then some awesome awards are on the way – all so awesome yeah!!!
Dear Insomnia
You may seem to record a small victory today
Am up since 10:53 having slept dutifuly by 9.15 pm
I don’t know for how long we’ll stay awake today
Yesterday we admired each other for 3 hours
Then I got a 5th hour of sleep
I near blew my trumpet then
Not knowing you were taking note
Changing strategy and re-strategizing
Increasing the AC temp until I can’t
I have to decamp to a lonely corner
Nah you wouldn’t let me be
Repeat of August 2014
When my darling Gaby went on
This time I know better
I wouldn’t only spy on you like a hawk
I will wait you out with camomile
First thing tomorrow morning
I get myself that and more
You aint having any final word
See what I got from Diane in the picture?
But ugly and mean you
With nothing to offer but mind muggles
Plus body bashing head, eyes, back
I give you three more days
To try your best and leave
Because dear Insomnia
I am ready to wait you out
