Lady, mum, minister of the word, author, mental health advocate, psychotherapist… inspires & motivates with personal experiences
Hello world, after passing my exams in flying colours recently; setting out on a journey to launch a much desired and needed service as a CBT therapist and mental wellbeing coach, so grateful for all the support.
Have a great week everyone
She crawled under her bed
It made no more sense
Such sham & shame
The Weight
Mind & Mass
Needless living on
Who cares what goes on
Sensless, pointless, needless
It is truly
HOPELESS
……….
she publishes a 4th memoir
Kinda movie
The 360°
Transformations
Hardwork
Tough Choices & Sacrifices
Faith, Hope, Love
It is truly
HOPEFUL
……….
(C) 2017 Marie Abanga
The end
P.s: Officially and in my inspired way, fully embracing my story and engraving it in my heart and on all walls of my home. I actually did crawl and stay for a while under my hospital bed the morning my daughter died, I prayed the ground open up for me. I spiralled for 6 months and survived another 6. Then although pregnant once again, it felt not worth living. I picked up a knife and then I got a kick from within and I dropped it hot. The transformation started dripping in from that moment… Be inspired…
I leave dots after more because I leave it to each one to fill in what they want. I was shaken and yet poked up when I read of the pastor’s suicide. I was also in serious reflections about mental wellness whether you were a christian or not – coincidence or not? World suicide day had just come and gone, and I remember holding a knife to my heart 10 years ago while 5 months pregnant. I wrote several related posts on Facebook about this yesterday and I just saw another article which took me back to thinking about doing this post.
Here is the link to the article I read:
Now, I don’t know about out there, but in my country mental health challenges are ‘not welcome in church’ period. Better call them demon possessed attacks or wicked people thrown sorts on you – bottom line is you have to be delivered in church, you have lots of penance to do and …
With me being so vocal about my mental health challenges and my PTSD diagnosis from 2014, I quickly learned when I joined church that it’s not so welcome to be vocal – about that and about pretty much – like Rape. I am contemplating if I can swim in such a sea or if I have to leave for real.
So, will this suicide by a pastor cause the ‘church’ to become more…open, real, compassionate, and you can go on; or will they quickly dissociate from the victim pastor, finding reasons to show he was perhaps a ‘fake’ pastor after all?
We’ll see how it goes…in the meantime let’s remember #mentalhealthmatters
Hello world, I am on some reflections trajectory in my life recently and this month as I put on my bathrobe, the above question came to my mind.
I am sharing the post I wrote on Facebook with you all, who knows who has a thought on that or some reflection to share too right?
Do have a great day, here is the link: https://m.facebook.com/story.php?story_fbid=1462769327198200&id=100003954406995
Ah life is – full of stages. Anyways, that’s how I see mine and reflect on in the linked Facebook post: h
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I am back from an incredible Spiritual Journey started on the 5th of August with my church. I had done a 3days fast on the first three days of the month as I committed to be doing since year start, and was praying for the Grace to do the #5weeks5days fast called too.
I even asked God how I could make the fast personal you know, because the program was for Church growth, and so I decided I would love some spiritual growth too. I got directives from my spirit, and I set out to implement them. One of them was that I avoid social media to the barest minimum, which I find tough to do just like last year when I embarked on a 70 days journey. But, it was worth it.
Hmm, it wasn’t for the faint of heart. We had early morning prayers in church at 6am and in the evening at 6.30 pm. I tried my best, but eventually gave up on the morning prayers.
So, what was this journey all about ? Last year’s was revealed to me to one of ‘enlightenment and purification‘; and this year’s which I got two days ago lol, was one of “Confirmation, Transformation and Preparation“. Uhu that ‘s what it was all about for real. I felt the confirmation I was on the right Spiritual track and I was tapping into the right energy and vibration s – and for that I was so grateful. The
Transformation which I welcomed so gladly, was one of enabling me see the world and all of us as wonderful creations of the universe -God whoever or however anyone calls Him. I felt so free to get this shift formalized sort of, it’s been in my heart for a couple of years now, and I was so happy to see why I really need a 360° transformation of perceptions. I read all sorts of books and listened to audios from different spiritual teachers both gone and still here, oh my so so much transformation.
Preparation is the big one now. Preparing to start a series of symposia in November, then to start designing my project to open a House of Hope and Healing to be founded on Christian precepts but open to everyone of course.
I mean, I don’t joke with my fasts, retreats, Spiritual Journeys – I always get much more than I could ever anticipate. I even reconnected with my best friend in primary school on the eve of the journey, and the soul connection is still so strong.
I AM READY
Be encouraged and strengthened; be inspired and motivated everyone.
P.S. Oh my I did miss blogging and writing more than I even missed food hahahaha. Glad to be back
Hello all,
It’s not like I have been seriously blogging again these days like before, but I have tried not to let a week pass with posting something here.
I started a weekly segment on Facebook Live recently, called Christian Motivation, and today’s is just as interesting hopefully. It’s the last I will share here until my 40days spiritual journey is over. I hope someone watches and takes home something Amen
https://m.facebook.com/story.php?story_fbid=1430004590474674&id=100003954406995
