Hello world, after passing my exams in flying colours recently; setting out on a journey to launch a much desired and needed service as a CBT therapist and mental wellbeing coach, so grateful for all the support.
Have a great week everyone
Hopeless…Hopeful
Hopeless
Might as well
Hopeful
She crawled under her bed
It made no more sense
Such sham & shame
The Weight
Mind & Mass
Needless living on
Who cares what goes on
Sensless, pointless, needless
It is truly
HOPELESS
……….
she publishes a 4th memoir
Kinda movie
The 360°
Transformations
Hardwork
Tough Choices & Sacrifices
Faith, Hope, Love
It is truly
HOPEFUL
……….
(C) 2017 Marie Abanga
The end
P.s: Officially and in my inspired way, fully embracing my story and engraving it in my heart and on all walls of my home. I actually did crawl and stay for a while under my hospital bed the morning my daughter died, I prayed the ground open up for me. I spiralled for 6 months and survived another 6. Then although pregnant once again, it felt not worth living. I picked up a knife and then I got a kick from within and I dropped it hot. The transformation started dripping in from that moment… Be inspired…
Go MARIE it’s your birthday…
MAG (Marie – that’s me lol) turned 41 and had several Musings to share
Go MAGnectic it’s your birthday: Life it was said began at 40; so as I majestically climb the first staircase on the 4th floor, I should tell how great the life has been so far… hmmmmmm so much livelovelaughlearn, am ready for more o – God thank You
In 2013(My year of new beginings), my birthday was barely 10 days after I arrived Belgium and I was still dreading how I was going to survive or escape that place. I hadn’t started blogging too and was yet to meet my super super hero in March. The birthday was spent with my Angelique and her small family of 2 in a village called Zotegem.
In 2014 (My year of Faith), a year after I got to Belgium and was getting to feel more stable and real holistic love, I had been so emotional on my birthday and recorded a video which can be found on youtube: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YPQM8kM0oiA
When I turned 36 in 2015 (My year of redemption), I wrote a blog article you could read following this link: https://marieabanga.wordpress.com/2015/01/18/36-course-in-36-years/
2016 (My year of Love) was spent starting to love myself so so much, I went to Kribi (a seaside resort in my country) for a weekend with the pgymees, and spent the birthday itself talking about love for self on a TV program. It was a low key year, I tried to love another but that wasn’t mutual and it hurt but I let go and went for a turning point 3 days spiritual retreat.
2017 (my year of gratitude) was an amazing year and my birthday was spent just being grateful with my boys. I wrote a blog reviewing some turning point stations of my life and other stuffs like previous birthdays too lol: https://marieabanga.wordpress.com/2017/01/18/its-my-birthday-reviewing-some-of-the-down-the-road/
On my 39th birthday in 2018 (My year of progress), I had the following 9 soul wishes: https://marieabanga.wordpress.com/2018/01/18/my-top-9-wishes-on-my-39th-birthday-will-be/
With all the above, I think I have been an excellent student in informal school and deserve a medal. Were I to add 4 more lessons to the 36th I wrote down in 2015 they’d be:
1) Be Patient, this is a vip virtue you don’t want to miss out courting all over and over again;
2) Be YOU – all others are not worth competing nor comparing with. While at it, keep striving to be the BEST VERSION EVER;
3) Keep being a life long learner, that’s the most yielding and wisest thing to do;
4) Never forget your source. My God, My Father, My Alpha and Omega, Mighty God I bow before thee Imela
Here is the link to the journal of a 7 days spiritual journey I did last year to usher in my new age as guided by my spirit. Who knows who can be inspired, it’s free download o https://drive.google.com/open?id=1cfbMALPiq5lgXhRBWCIPpFfKliNUkF1C
2019 was my year of Grace. So much grace amazing, living, loving, learning and learning all the way to and fro.
2020 is my year of GLORY, I know who I am…
#MAGturns41
#Iamfreedomandlove
#IamMAGnectic
#GodisGood
#letGodandLovelead
#livelovelaughlearn
#AttitudeofGratitude
#Attitudinalhealing
#GrowingwithGrace
Gratitude as an attitude all the way
Muse with MAG: Do you have an attitude of gratitude? (16.1.2020)
I DO! From as early as I can remember I have preferred being grateful than grumpy. And I came to to spend the night with my soul sister at the hospital, she was admitted for head hammers ( don’t know how else to quality such headaches which land you in hospital. Three days prior I visited her at her cozy home and we even sat on her bed gisting before moving on to her comfy sitting room to watch some TV show she likes. Last night, she was having a drip and a difficult time sleeping, while I was on her bedside and had my sports mat to lie on intermittently. This morning, I looked at that mat and said ‘am grateful I have you, and wouldn’t ever worry about the thickness of my mattress at home again’ and added lol to that. Well, I really mean in every circumstances we can find reason to be grateful an not grumpy. I am tired and need some sleep and if possible a massage, but am so grateful I could come spend the night with my darling before her family comes in this morning. Friends aren’t only to go hang out or spend money on/for each other. It had been years I spent such a night in a hospital with the lights on all night o hahahaha. To each their own appreciation of life o, just my musings. Have a Terrific Thursday world and may God bless us all AMEN.
#douhaveanattitudeofgratitude?
#MAGinspires
#MAGmotivates
#MAGtakesthelead
#MAGisintentional
#AttitudeofGratitude
#IamMAGnectic
#letGodandLovelead
#Godgotmyback
#makeitmatter
Ushering in my 2020 with gusto, and you?
Hiya pals,
How are you ushering in your 2020? I was out last night and discovered anyone could sign up to go sing or intepret and song of their choice.
I signed up to go do “I wanna dance with somebody who loves me” by the diva Whitney Houston of fondest memories.
Here is to a 2020 of more dancing than crying
Light and love all the way
Movie Review: WOMAN by Goretti
Wow Happy New Year Blogsphere,
I almost thought I had given up blogging on wordpress lol.
But, when one of your heroines produces a movie with the single word WOMAN, you stay up at night and watch, and you watch it again in the office, actually binge watch on your both gadgets lol.
So, Goretti who I described a few years ago as shooting for the moon, released her epic movie WOMAN onto the world wide web.
Let me just share the description on the channel, while encouraging or even plead with you all to watch, share and why not leave a review too so it helps dem in their analysis and preparation for part 2 right?
Meet Angoh, Manga and Rachel, the three it took to tango. Angoh is the unsuspecting wife who gets blindsided by her sneaky husband. Manga is the husband, who likes to eat his cake and have it too. Rachel is the bitch we all like to hate, the home-wrecker, and the one who ‘stole’ someone’s husband or did she?
‘Woman’ poses the question that many of us refuse to consider. Should the blame be equally shared by all three or none?
Is this just another lame case of the very brain-washed rhetoric ‘He’s just a man, they are weak and prone to mistakes’ or should there be a renewed pride and dignity demanded by women to reject that kind of excuse?
Truth is, there is a different breed of women emerging from behind the shadows, they are called ‘Woman’ they raise their head in self-love and only lower their heads to admire the path upon which they walk.
It’s my association’s 1st birthday hurray
https://m.facebook.com/story.php?story_fbid=486903861945366&id=280860505883037
Step by step, day by day, the House of Hope and Healing is built
It started as a vision last October, by December 10th everything was formalized. Hope for the Abused and Battered was formally registered.
Never give up, please read on and be inspired. If moved to donate in any way, never hesitate to reach out to .
https://www.worldpulse.com/community/users/marie-abanga/posts/93050
A call for help, you never know who can help
Can you help Hope for the Abused and Battered equip its offices? There is such joy in giving. Thank you very much
https://m.facebook.com/story.php?story_fbid=483010885667997&id=280860505883037&sfnsn=mo
I am more than my mental health diagnosis
Are you a person with lived experiences of mental illness? Join the GMHPN
Watch “Mental illness and Sexual Abuse Grace’s story and appeal” on YouTube
#mentalillnessnsexualabuse some mentally ill are vulnerable to being sexual abused like Grace was. She is 23 years and has been ill since 2012. She was diagnosed with schizophrenia in 2013. A man purred her to bed 2 months ago, given her a ring that he was going to marry her. He just needed to know how deep was her own love to him. We can aptly plead insanity here, she doesn’t have all her mental faculties to make informed choices. Now she is pregnant and the man has disappeared. The last time she saw him he gave her 14.000frs to go for an abortion. Why are some people so wicked? Grace is suicidal, her mother is over the edge with worry and sadness. Theirs is a struggling family of 6 kids with she being the third. After 4 years away from school due to the illness, she resumed form 5 last year hoping to write her O’levels. Please, listen to her story and reach out to help out if you can. We need all the help we can get and no amount is too small. Our phone number for any Mobile money donations in Cameroon is +237672576011 Hope for the Abused and Battered. Ref should be Grace, our email address is hope@hope4abusedbattered.com. Website is http://www.hope4abusedbatteted.com. Thank you all, #thereishope.
