The Stubborn but Passionate one I answered…
No no, like in which church do you go to they insisted?
Is faith now relegated to a church you attend, I fired back?
Ah Marie ok, which religion do you practice?
Papa please faith and religion are not the same to me oh
And the conversation stopped there and I got the look…one I seem to get a little more these days which may be intended to make me look weird, or queer or self absorbed or any of those names which have been thrown at me recently hahaha
When I blogged that I was starting a 70 day spiritual retreat cum fasting, hell let loose. I didn’t really get comments here, but since the post was shared on facebook, twitter and sure the fastest means of communication ever; “hear-say, I got them solicited and unsolicited feedback in abundance.
a) so you mean you now have faith more than all of us?
b) so you mean you now hear voices?
c) so you mean you can do the impossible?
d) so you mean you don’t need anybody’s advice even the doctor’s or a priest? …
Ok, with the type of faith I have, could it now be clear why I am who I am? I have long had such faith, but I compromised myself way too much. Wanting to be accepted and to belong – conform, to be believed in lol
I am difficult to persuade or dissuade…try it. I listen to all schools of thought, do my research, pray over it and then take my decision. Let me get burnt and learn my lesson, I love such lessons and already have over double dozen catalogs (like in the days when it was chic to order via a catalog hahaha)
Let me borrow this from the awesome book The Way which am reading all over again. He wrote it in 1954 and it was simply put revolutionary – no spoilers but hmm, one of those books which reads you too. And so he says in point 14: “Don’t waste your time and your energy – which belong to God – throwing stones at the dogs that bark at you on your way. Ignore them”.
And so dear all, 14 days ago I wrote that I was steady for stage 2, I made it by Grace… slightly tougher than stage one, give myself a 75% ( this was really a getting steady stage, got upset a few more times – may be also side effects of some Primalan or etc I was prescribed ha)but that’s still a bravo for me. I am so thrilled to be back and passionate about the possibility of sharing 6/7 more posts with all my gentle readers and followers before setting out on stage three.
The not so good news is that I have a swollen eye which has been around for close to 20 days now and I was taking my part in its healing slow. I went to to the ophthalmologist finally last Wednesday (near regretted I did spend my money for a nonchalant 10 mins consultation and prescriptions for all including tests and lenses and no diagnosis even ha). So, I gave those products up to today to make any impact (ignored the tests nor lenses prescription -not wearing both hearing aids and lenses period) and all I was getting was blurred vision+drowsiness+sour and dry mouth… I recalled not having read the side effects of those products, having even pressured to be told what they were specifically for. When I FINALLY (better late than never but best to always read once product is bought) read the side effects of the three products he prescribed this afternoon, I identified with some of those effects, and thus decided to go full scale natural remedy during this 3 days break. I got me some Aloe Vera and Cucumber, I also have turmeric and honey , some this and that. I googled how to use them for a sore eye, and am fixing them up to use them religiously for the next three days. We’ll see how that goes lol, but I have already used some semi-frozen Aloe Vera Gel on the eyes, drank a glass of the gel too (yummy negative), put a slice of cucumber dipped in real cold water on each, dropped in turmeric mixed with mild warm water, eaten 3 spoons of garlic+turmeric +chopped onions+moringa leaves +ginger+honey ha – full healing in 3 days by the force of my faith, and put some ice cube on the hurting one – I swear I already feel better and the boys notice a difference…I never heard of overdose with natural remedy nor side effects so am all enrolled…my inner compass is guiding me once more… I drank an xl cup of warm milk and honey too, didn’t feel it right to drop that in the eyes hahaha
Thanks to all well wishers, and I wish us all be faithful to our faith in who or whatever we put or see same…inner peace is my compass, which indicates the right direction in matters of my faith.
Happy Sunday (happy Palm Sunday to all who celebrate this day) …this post seems so befitting of a Sunday right? Hope it was a good and soulful read…
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Dearest Marie, I am so glad you do not listen to other people’s doubts and opinions!
Hoping your eye gets better, in any fashion, natural or pharmaceutical!
Love
Pam
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Hi Pammie dearest, thanks for your comment and unconditional support. I am so in tune with my self when I listen to my own inner voice. It takes a lot to get there, but there is no regretting once there. The eye is indeed getting better very gradually, I think the lesson to be gotten from the episode had to take such a while. I am learning, appreciating and grateful for all
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It’s funny how people translate LISTENING to doctor recommendations and CHOOSING to modify or disregard them altogether as “not needing anybody’s advice”. Advice comes from a “collection of experiences”; it is NOT the ONLY approach to solving matters in life. People like to follow “professional” advice because it removes personal responsibility and requires less THOUGHT. I believe we should LISTEN to ALL advice. We should then use our brain to determine the combination best suited to achieve the goal that FITS our individual needs.
Simply relying on others to decide for us commonly achieves a less than desirable outcome. Yet, a majority of people will follow this path regardless, because (in their minds)….”it’s just the way it is”.
Those who truly VALUE their lives make certain the final decision rests in their own hands! If people were open minded and willing to be honest, they would ask themselves, “who else cares more about MY wellbeing than ME”? Blindly following another person’s advice removes one’s own sense of power over SELF. Under these circumstances, personal destiny is handed over to those in charge. We join the “herd” in life and live by the Shepherd’s rules. How can the individual experience GROWTH and DEVELOPMENT over a lifetime if his or her brain is trained to only follow pre-existing paths chosen by others? “Imprisoning” the EXPANSIVE CREATIVE mind in exchange for a false sense of security by accepting “the way it’s always been”, leads to a destiny of repeating the same mistakes over and over again.
I believe the INDIVIDUAL deserves better from LIFE!
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Doc, thanks so much for your soulful comment. After near 5 years blogging, I have come to respect those who leave comments, who leave them as consistently as they can, and who leave comments in beat with their soul. You can so tell by the content of their comment be it in a few or many lines. But, truth be told, when someone takes the time to leave a comment of several paragraphs with some words all in caps, you want to read that comment over 3 times before responding. This is exactly what I did with your comment.
First, I got this: “who else cares more about MY wellbeing than ME”? A thought provoking question, a question many wouldn’t love to ask themselves and not to mention answer candidly. It took me near 3 decades to discover that question, dare to ask myself, give it to my face, and then set out to accept PERSONAL RESPONSIBILITY in implementing the answer and being ACCOUNTABLE for any consequences.
Then this: How can the individual experience GROWTH and DEVELOPMENT over a lifetime if his or her brain is trained to only follow pre-existing paths chosen by others? I wonder. I therefore chose to be ‘unconventional’, to find my own path and walk same with persistence and perseverance. With determination, discipline and dedication.I have a very stubborn but passionate Faith.
And finally: “I believe the INDIVIDUAL deserves better from LIFE”! I believe same too, thank you very much.
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What a great response to my comment. I hope your readers read it over and over to learn from its wisdom. So many people can benefit from your personal experiences if they choose to open their eyes, minds and hearts even though FEAR may be an obstacle.
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On one’s spiritual path, the sage must be tested and master the various challenges of life in order to sometimes be able to minister to those who need it. I salute you sis. You are a force to be reckoned with. Are you familiar with the life of Saint Hildegard of Bingen? I thought of her when I read this post from you. https://www.franciscanmedia.org/saint-hildegard-of-bingen/
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Dear Mimshe, thanks so much for your comment. I agree with you and I am ready and just got real steady. Currently finalizing the set for stage 3. I am a vessel, an instrument and I am here to fulfill my purpose which I just got clearly spelled out to me. It is all so amazing and I am so grateful. I am not familiar and never heard of her o. Let me check her out now, thanks for pointing me in that direction. I hope you know you are one of the angels on my path.
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